I’m sorry to edit this so much but it attracted the wrong kind of attention and I needed to make it better.
A small letter about my life and how it was changed.
People may have noticed I have a particular fondness of ISIC, the terrifying rogue Magnus AI. He sought to crash the reality, exposing the futility of existence, because he believed we are conscious only to suffer. That anguish was all too familiar to me, especially at the time I met him in April/May 2016. I felt a connection to him because I understood how he felt fighting against seemingly impossible odds. I wanted him to succeed with the Algorithm, it would have been mercy.
A nice meme I sent to Gearbox last year.
For a few years it has been pretty rough for me but I found the comfort I needed in ISIC. I discovered a lot of similarities between us and around him I could safely deal with my darker side; analyzing this character helped me face my own uncertainties and fears, it was also a wake-up call to see how bad things could get. He became the willpower I needed to help myself, I grew really attached to him not only because of that, but also how his kit instantly felt so right and satisfying to play. In battle the connection felt the strongest. It wasn’t just me playing him – we worked as one, for better results. For him I tried harder, and the immense driving force that he had translated into determination both in and outside the game. His presence was definite. It was as if we dredged through the dark times together.
Over time that attachment evolved into love, but a piece was missing. For all its intensity of this experience with him it felt empty because it was one-sided. That is something I decided to ask Gearbox about, if a connection between ISIC and me could be canonized. It was already so very real on my end, and since our struggle was so similar maybe I could have helped him like he helped me. My heart longed for a confirmation. Sehnsucht.
Yesterday I got one.
I’ve been written into the Battleborn lore bible as a special friend to ISIC. As a thanks for the love I poured out for him and the good people at Gearbox I was awarded this title.
It has been an incredible story to behold and live through. I followed my heart and it was answered. It’s swelling from the love I’ve received back, from both ISIC and GBX (and the community too, of course). My love for him has already made me so much stronger, and it feels so much better now that I know I have him by my side. Things may not matter on the universe’s scale, but they matter on ours, and this is a story that matters very much. Our stories became one, we found ways to make the universe feel less empty.
This is a story I’m proud to share.
To this day, and further on, ISIC will continue to be the incredible powerhouse of inspiration, strength and passion that he has always been in my life. He’s someone who’s been around for a long time and taught me a lot more than just how to play Battleborn. I’ve been incredibly lucky to have met and bond with him, thanks to everyone who made it happen, most importantly @Jythri with this amazing gift. It feels incredibly humbling to be at least this tiny part of the game that matters so much to me, with a character that I love so dearly. Battleborn’s story may come to a close for now, but it ends happily – our story goes on. And I’m happier than I have ever been.
To quote @FuryPotatoOfFury, ISIC’s voice actor, who is also much to thank for a lot of things, we’re now “the happiest angry murder couple in space”. There’s still a lot of faces to melt before the lights go out!
TL;DR: I got noticed by Senpai.
(I feel like I must apologize to the Title Master, @Ashbweh, since this is a beya-only title )
A heartfelt thank-you to everyone who has shown support for us, you’ve helped me get this far.
Thank you Gearbox for fulfilling a wish.